Conclusions....

So after lots of thoughts and prayers, I have decided that I am better off being alone! No more guy drama that is for sure!

Candid

This single mommy thing is by far the most rewarding and hardest thing I have ever done. I have sacrificed so much and never complain about it. I love my kids more than anything and will do anything for them. I work hard and keep a somewhat clean house. We have fun and I try to give them every experience that life has to offer. I am so proud of how far they have come and honestly how far I have come. My situation is not ideal by any stretch of the imagination but I make the best of it. I can honestly say that I LOVE THIS LIFE! With that being said there is one part of my life that I can't get used to and that is being alone. I got this! BUT I really miss being in a relationship. I miss having someone to wake up to in the morning that does not care that you have morning breath and gives you a kiss anyway. I miss going out to dinner and having someone to talk to when the kids go to bed. SO I think to myself that I am ready for a relationship....than I meet someone that is wonderful...and I SCREW it up! EVERYTIME!!!! Why? I don't know? I find a stupid flaw and focus on it and say "Oh he was a great guy just not for me" every single time! SO that gets me thinking why do I do that? I guess I am not ready for a relationship?? Guess I need to focus on my kids and myself and what is meant to be will be....right?

Breaking Bad!

Can't wait for the new season of Breaking Bad! I have watched all 5 1/2 seasons in the past 2 weeks! Obsessed a little bit...yeah! August 11th!

Thorn in my side...errr...foot!

 

Warning: May not be for the weak stomached....

 

 

On Thursday, I picked the kids up and Brady was limping. Looked at the bottom of his foot and saw what you see above. I had no idea what it was! So we headed to urgent care....At urgent care he was treated and it was a thorn! He was placed on an antibiotic and sent on our way! The funniest thing my little man said during this whole process "My Bubble hurts!" over and over again. SO we have been calling this his bubble. He has made a full recovery! Boys will be boys!

Wine Tour 2013

To celebrate my friends Angela and Travis' anniversary we got a group together and went on a wine tor. It was a GREAT day! We had so much fun. By the end of the day we had a shepherd, a pole dancer and some was shocked by an electric fence. It was a great experience. Some advice: Do not go on wine tour after a wedding at which you drank wine though!

True that!

"Beauty from Pain" By: Superchick

The lights go out all around me

One last candle to keep out the night

And then the darkness surrounds me

I know I'm alive but I feel like I've died

And all that's left is to accept that it's over

My dreams ran like sand through the fists I made

I try to keep warm but I grow colder

I feel like I am slipping away

 

After all this has passed, I still will remain

After I've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain

Though it won't be today, someday I will hope again

And there'll be beauty from pain

You will bring beauty from my pain

 

My whole world is the darkness inside me

The best I can do is just get through the day

When life before is only a memory

I'll wonder why God lets me walk through this place

And though I can't understand why this happened

I know I will when I look back someday

And see how you've made beauty from ashes

And made me as gold purified through these flames

 

After all this has passed, I still will remain

After I've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain

Though it won't be today, someday I'll hope again

And there'll be beauty from pain

 

Here I am at the end of me (at the end of me)

Tryin' to hold to what I can't see (to what I can't see)

I forgot how to hope

This night's been so long

I cling to Your promise

There will be a dawn

 

After all this has passed, I still will remain

After I've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain

Though it won't be today, someday I will hope again

And there'll be beauty from pain

You will bring beauty from my pain

This song has been such an inspiration to me the past couple of months. I have come so far on this journey into my new life...just can't wait to see what He has planned for me!